Every Reason To Hate God
I just watched a sad movie, A Walk To Remember, about a jerk boy who ends up falling in love with a girl who has cancer. She's a Christian girl, her Father is a minister, and he, he does a 180 with his life out of his love for her..not to try and win her over but in the midst of his and her love his and her life change drastically.I'm sure many of you are already somewhat familiar with the movie so I will not focus on the show too much, but the one major part, when she says, "I have every reason to hate God!" Believe it or not she does. Many people will never admit it out of pride, but time and time again, more often than not for most of us, we hate God. Caught you didn't I?
I hate God. Why shouldn't I? I have more seizures daily than you can count on your hand. I'm scarred to death when I have most of them, that I'm going to die somehow, usually by suffocating. Or I have many drop seizures, the back of my head says I should be dead, it looks that way anyway.
I have been in the ER so many times due to seizures that I know the nurses by first name. That's not the reason you want to know people on a first name basis.
Now things just keep getting worse. The seizures, the body fatigue that comes with them, etc. Heck, now the doctor even ordered me a wheelchair because I've fallen one too many times and they don't want to take their chances. Come to it, I'd like to live a little longer also.
I guess there just comes a time when you have to face your problem, whatever it might be, and accept it. Personally I don't like the idea, but it is true that what we think is a problem could be part of G-d's plan for us. His plan for us is much greater than what we think; so it's greater than cancer, than epilepsy, than MS, or whatever. The only thing is that as human beings we can't comprehend that.
I might overuse it but I am going to reference Jeremiah 29:11. G-d says "For I know the plans I have for you, plans of good and not evil, plans to prosper you in every way to give you a future and a hope."
So G-d has no pain for us, only good - good in every way, because without G-d we don't even have a future or anything to even hope for. Sometimes we just need to embrace His plans and kick our own to the curb.
Listen to these songs tell you. They can probably tell you better than me.